Dear Alex,
If you ever read this future self, I hope that person you have become is someone who is able to live freely and with the mentality that you can be yourself. Inherently life has always been strange. You may have felt like you've gone through the worst experiences of belittling words being shot towards you from time to time. You tried to get those words to just go right through you instead of impaling you and your self-esteem but it is clear that regardless of them going through you or not it will still leave a wound. Wounds that have the chance of completely hijacking your mind and mentality, creating a new personality. Though at the time of writing this I am not in a place I would like to be, I am wishing upon stars and beyond that, you will be able to grow into a person that you are happy to be with fewer insecurities and less sensitivity.
Sincerely,
Past You